Family Love Forgiveness

Over the past year, I have finally come to what "family" really means. LOVE and FORGIVENESS. Both of these have been extremely difficult for me to act upon. It is one thing to say "I love you" or "I forgive you", but to truely leave it all out there and allow my heart and actions to show it has been a lesson for me.

For those of you who know me, my dad has been a major part of my life. Yes, I talk to him everyday, sometimes even twice. Therepists and others have told me that its not normal to talk to him that much. Well, deep in my heart I knew that our relationship was different. No matter what situation I got myself into he helped me through it(my mom has too, but I am talking about dad) Come to find out, my dad has to have a liver transplant. He has been so sick, and without my husband to love me through it, I don't think I would have th strength to go on. I married a man that has seen my family go through many ups and downs, and he is the one person who offered his liver to my dad. My heart just melts over this. How do I express that kind of love back? I don't know if I am even capable.

I just got off the phone with the doctor, and both my husband and I match my dad's blood type. What do we do? There are many other tests we have to do, but how do you choose? I am so scared. How do I think positive about the situation? I can either lose my dad, my husband or myself. So many questions. And not to mention, there is so much more going on in our lives that is tough. But the one thing I am certain about is LOVE, Ray and I have love for eachother and our children. WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER!